Tahun 2011 yg bakal berakhir

Ak rasa bnyk sgt perkara jd tahun ni..

dan sikit sgt yg ak berjaya capai..

hati ni sedih sgt..

kdg2 sunyi..

bila rasa diri ak lone ranger dlm dunia ak..

ak pon xlama lagi dh nk masuk 22..

pejam celik pejam celik..

masa xpernah tunggu ak..

cepat sgt ..tok pon dh xdak

keluarga ak pulak bertambah dan berkurang..

kaklinda dh nk bersalin hari ahad ni..

sama besday n sultan selangoq

11.12.2011.

Adam lahir 13.12.2009

Adib lahir 10.6.2011

Ak rindukan org2 yg pernah ada dlm hidup ak..

Ak rindu kt tok..bila tok dh xdak, teringat kt dy..

Ak janji pada diri ak..

aku akan hargai semua org yg ada di depan mata ak sekarang..

my bestfren fathul.i miss u..ij, i miss u..

hope those who i love will love me just the way i love them..

apa pon tahun ni xlah seburuk buruk life..

mak ayah sentiasa menyokong ak

bersama ak susah senang dan sehat dan sakitku

ak syg adik..tp ak sll marah2 n pkul dy bila dy xdgr ckp sikit..

adik, maafkan kaknya..kaknya syg adik sgt2

ak sayu bila terkenang ak sll marah2 kaklinda sbb sll marah2 dy waktu dy ngndung sbb dy xlarat nk jalan time g shopping raya

ak lgsg xmemahami

skrg br ak nyesal

ak kesal dgn sikap ak

ak terlalu ikot hati..lgsg x amik berat atau kesahkan hal kakak ak

ak sll sakitkan ati kakak2 ak dan hati org2 yg sygkan ak

sori kaklinda..kakwani..

i promise to be a better adik, a better sister, a better sibling, companion.

Ak janji akan jadi perempuan yg lebih baik.

Yang layak di panggil kakak, adik, anak.

Ak nk jd anak yg baik untuk mak dan ayah..

X mau lawan2 ckp ayah dh..ckuplah selama ni.

Semoga tahun ni berlalu dan tersimpan dlm lipatan hatiku.

Semoga tahun 2012 yg bakal menjelma, membawa semangat baru untuk Siti Nur Amira Binti Ghazali.

 

 

 

 

 

Now She Gone

balik kg hari jumaat 5hb 8.
.lepas bukak puase.
.gegas p rumah paklang..
ckp tok dh lorat/nazak.
 tiba2 ja hrtu dy xbgun2 dr tdo..
mlm tu dy masuk icu kt KMC.
.tgu cne smpai pkul 4 pagi..balik rumah..
esok tu pergi lagi..tp masuk kejap je..
icu xleh tgu lama2.
.pastu ade waktu2 lawatan dy
ni 2nd time tok masuk icu
hari kedua dia tukar wad..
masuk wad biase
igtkan dh ok
b/p semua ok..temperature ok
tp time kt icu ecg dy sgt2 teruk..tp ak xterckp ape2
magrib tu bukak puasa n makcik..
dy pon bertolak balik kl
berkali2 Datuk Amin(dr yg rawat nenek ak) tny agak2 bile ak bole bawak balik tok ke rumah
tp ak xpham maksud tersirat
sebaliknya ak soal datuk amin balik..
tny dy dh sehat ke yg datuk nk dy bg dy balik
ptg esok tu.
.ak balik rumah bila makngah n jan dtg ganti tgu tok
tgh tdo kt rumah..pkul 3 pagi
terbangun..dgr kakwani ckp kt fon..
dorg bgtau tok dh xde
mmg terkejut sgt..
pasni kami dh xde tok dh
cepat sgt dy p..
mengejut..
xsgka dy akan p dgn cepat..
ak bedakkan dy
mandikan jenazah dy
itu yg mampu ak buat utk dy buat kali terakhir
semoga roh tok dicucuri rahmat
tok meninggal dlm bulan baik
bulan ramadhan yg mulia
ramai tegur tok nampak lawa waktu dtg menziarah jenazah..
mmg betul..

Muhammad Adib Thaqif Bin Mohd Zaidi

my new nephew delivery..pics throughout the days when i was back in home town..

pagi bfr p bersalin..dan lagi posing


odway ke bilik bedah...huhu..scary


here is Muhammad Adib Thaqif


ni old babies with mak eden...


hehhe..ni pon newborn jugak..cume bermisai sket..


geng2 ciwi..heheh

sekian~

New babies..

2009, ak dapat anak sedara sulong.


The only anak sedara yang ak ada smpai saat ini..mlm ni., 10.25mlm 7 june 2011.

10june 2011, aku bakal ada dua anak sedara.

Kak wani tgh sarat mengandung anak kedua,

dy akan bersalin secara c section 10hb nti..


adam dulu pon belah jugak sbb dy takot nk bersalin biasa..

lagipon adam besaq sgt. 3.6kg birth weight dy..hehe


melalak!!!..hehe



raya 2010~

adam dh setahun 6 bulan.dy buas sgt2 ok..meluat ak..

TP SYG SGT2 KT ADAM..HEHE...
DY comel..xmcm mcm anak menakan org len la..haha.
dy yg plg comel..hehhe




ni bapak menyusu baby...


lepas setahun kak linda kwen..

dy seniri smpai dh malas nk beli pregnancy test kit sbb dok –ve jugak

pagi tu dy masuk toilet bising2 pasai semut hitam busuk

logic la semut nk busuk

mlm tu dy bising2 perut dy kembung,..angin la

siap abg pojie naik urut duduk atas blkg dy lagik..hehhe

ak pelik sgt2..

ak pergi klcc aritu

mlm tu balik singgah tesco beli pregnancy test kit

hehehe

balik umah kak linda..

ak soh dy bg sample urine

ak pon tets la

TUP2X


Naik dua line...yeayyy..positif

Dy xcaya..hehe

Pastu g 7e mlm tu jugak

Beli lagi

Test lagi..mmg positif,...hehhe

Ak pon kira la due date dy

28 hb 12 2011


So tahun 2011, ak bakal tambah 2 anak sedara..huhu

Yg lawaknya..kaklinda ckp..dy nk anak dy mcm ak..hehehe

Ak xsgka..walaupon ak mcm ni..rupanya akak ak suka ak..hehe

Nk anak dy puteh n pandai mcm ak..maun ak xkembang semangkok..haha..riak ok

Sekian..hehhe

Well..i am counting the time n seconds..lagi 3 hari ak bakal jumpa insan baru dalam keluargaku..

~WELCOME TO THIS WORLD MUHAMMAD ADIB THAQIF BIN MOHAMMAD ZAIDI~

Tgok movies, thor n kongsi

Ak dh tgok thor 2x ok..

xbesh pon..second time ak tgok kt klcc..

tgok skrin sikit2 je..

bnyk kco mbe ak..hehheh..

dok nyembang lebih..

pastu g shopping kt klcc..heaven..haha..

1^st time g tgok n nani..

beria dlm kelas pon booking ticket kt midvalley siap2..

pkul 4 redah federal highway g bangsar.bahagia la g n nany.

Balik kg, hari khamis.pas adik balik skolah..

Soh dy siap cepat2..pas mkn nasi kami terus g cr ticket movy kongsi

Seyes..ak malas nk mencarut..

tp ak mencarut jugak la sket kt minah jaga ticket alor star mall

tp pompuan tu mmg mcm shit la.

Ko nama pon jaga kaunter..hormat la customer sket..

Ni boleh ckp kurang ajar..kasar2

Sabar je..terus ak xtgok kt alor star mall

Ak pergi city plaza

Eventhough cinema dy xbesh

At least ticket girl dy baik

Pakai tdung dan sopan

Ckp pon lembut je.

Ok sekian. Review ak pasal cinema di alor star..pasni ak nk tgok kt jitra mall pulak..ok ke x ok

Azam Dpt UPNM

Lepas 2 kali saringan temuduga..mula kt tudm kepala batas.pastu kem terendak Melaka..azam dapat tawaran jadi pegawai kadet kt UPNM buat asasi kejuruteraan...nama upnm dlm bi mcm sedap gak..hehe..national defense university. Dia dapat biasiswa kementerian pertahanan. Yuran free, pastu alaun bulan2 masuk 1288rgt..bnyk la kan..untuk budak u..dah la dok pon free kt kem.bestnya dy/..ak harap adik ak Berjaya..sebagai kakak, ak sangat2 bangga dengan adik ak. Xsia2 kesungguhan dia lari 3.2km dlam 18minit smpai muntah2 lepas tu..hhehe..tu la..kje naik mto je..mana la nk fit...nge~..ngata dy.;.tp ak gumuk dh now..hehe..ak doakan adik ak Berjaya..harini mak n ayah buat kenduri kesyukuran sebab azam nk masuk u.hehe..mak ak ckp baru2 nih..adik masuk u ni pon ujian Tuhan buat kita..Tuhan nk tgok kita akan riak ke bongkak atau makin bersyukur dengan kurniaan TUhan pada kita. Alhamdulillah. Semua ni Allah yang beri. KLu Tuhan xnk bagi, buat la mcm mana pon..xkan dpt. Bila ak kenang rasa hepi ak ni..seronok adik dapat masuk u..baru ak tau,,mcm ni la perasaan kak2 ak bila ak dpt smbung study dulu.rupanya inilah perasaan seorang kak yang medoakan kejayaan adik2 yang masih kecik. Dulu2, time kecik, ak suka pukul azam, gaduh2..smpai ayah tny, xsayang kt adik ka dok buat adik mcm ni. Dh la ada sorg adik ja.ak xdak adik lain time tu. 2003, ak form 3..3hb9.mak baru bersalin kat danial.so ak pon ada la 2 adik. Yang ak syg sgt2.

Org yg pandai berkata2

Anuar org yg pandai berkata2..walaupon dy ckp benda yg xlogik..akan nmpak logic..org akan terpesona n mula pikir n terima je apa yg dy ckp.. tp adakah kita nk org yg pandai berkata2 semata2..apa motif anuar masuk politiK?nk blas dendam ke..syg lagi ke anuar kt Malaysia ni lepas dy masuk penjara.. ak Rasa anuar Cuma nk puas kan hati dy sbb dy masuk penjara dulu. Lagipon dlm dunia ni org cari satisfaction. Apa yg dibuat sbb nk capai satisfaction.

Better not to choose anuar.sgt2 risky je klu dy jd pemimpin.bnyk sgt yg pelik. Mna dy dpt dana beli baju lepas kuar penjara untuk himpunan baju kuning tu. Seyes ak pelik..kaya pulak dy nk beli tshirt untuk 4ribu org. Mmg politik kotor. Tp jgn smpai kita dipergunakan org yg Cuma nk puaskan hati dy n hajat dya.

Neway post ni mgkin akan bt ayah ak marah..hehe

kejam..Ustaz vs Murid 7tahun...tgok sape menang??

then...

last...


ntah la..sbb tu payah ak nk percaya geng2 ustaz skola agama..
pakai tudung2 labuh,,
ak bukan anti..cuma xpercaya
sbb dalaman tu lain
bnyk lakonan semata2..
sbb dorg kja ustaz so they act like they are noble infront of us
instead who may knows whats in their heart..
people expect them to be good people..
insan yg baik..konon2 kudus..
USTAZ2....i dont believe
i know its not all of them
i dont want to be prejudice but thats what always occur
perogol..tp kt dahi ade tanda hitam..nk prove rajin solat
padahal time sujud tu tenyeh dahi kuat2 kt lantai sbb berlakon
ak akui ramai org baik..luar dalam
tp sesetengah tu..terlampau berlakon
same goes to they theory of man who show more/ express about they think..wont be harmful or dare to rape..but people who so diam2/shy2 cat..mmg r..sgt2 hazardous and dangerous
xtahu la ape dalam otak/hati ustaz tu time seksa budak tu
kak aina suruh ak byg ak yg dh umo21..dh besar
kena ikat kt tgkap..then kak aina(25years old) kick ak
two hours ok
byg kan
sakit giler
itu bagi ak yg dh besar
cuba adik saiful syazani yg masih kecik
seorang kanak2 berusia 7tahun sepatotnya kita lindungi dan bagi kasih syg
kenapa ada manusia sanggup untuk pkul kanak2..
ak ada adik umo 8tahun
dan ak..kami sekeluarga sangat sayangkan danial..
hanya Tuhan yg tahu kasih kami pada danial\
td mak kol..ckp pasal budak yg mati kna pkul n cikgu
mak ckp..adik ktrg tengking sikit pon dh xbrani melawan
nk pulak kna ikat n tendang smpai mati

ntah la..malas nk komen pasal skola pas nih
org2 pas bnyk berlakon
mcm last time banjir kt kedah
menteri besar..jgn kan menteri besar..
wakil rakyat pon lgsg xjenguk tgok org banjir
bukan duet yg diharapkan
tp keprihatinan
mmg org pas bnyk berlakon
siap pakai kopiah..serban
layakkah org2 mcm tu jd pemimpin
penuh lakonan
dorg ckp je pandai
bnyk mempertikai sumbangan org
sumbangan dorg xde lgsg

even in alor star..it is most easily to get laid with girls from skola agama which i dont think the need of mentioning the name..
http://makngohselamoh.blogspot.com/2011/04/al-fatihah-untuk-arwah-saiful-syazani.html

SPM ADIKKU..AZAM MINERVA~

"To my beloved adik...Azam Minerva who managed to score 7Asz in SpM..dont feel frustrated xdpt straight As...i still love u baby..its a long way to go...hehe..ok pe 7A..xla teruk sgt.."


Well..thats my shout out on fb..
on 23rd March 2011..
azam arrived at alor setar from kl..
get a nap..
and wake up that morning..
i am excited too at the moment..
feel really curious to know his result.
we went to his school after ayah and danial come back from merentas desa.
After waiting for so long..
at last his result come in and he manage to score 7As in his SPM
he seem to be upset and disappointed..
my parents..
to his shock..he get b in English..
but for me it is still ok..
life is not only for straight As people..
it is made for everyone..
whether u get As or not..
there is always pathway for you to go on..
no matter u get in a polytechnic or ikm or university..
as long as u never give up..
n dont be lazy..
i admit i am lazy
i am planning to change myself..
be a better girl
a better sister for my sibling
a better daughter for my parents
a better friend for my friends..hehe


i know..azam didn't manage to score because he is too lazy yet too bz merempit
with his 135LC..



if u work harder before this,.,i bet u get the straight As
but it still ok la adikku..u r not too bad..
7A is always ok..
i am praying for you to get place in UPNM as u wishes...
last but not least
i am proud of u..

Born This Way~ :: SelfLOVE ::

Be yourself and dont let anyone ever tell you that you cant get yourdream!!..
free yourself
Let go anyone who think or say you can not fit in..
reject any person who ever say u are not good enough, pretty enough!!!!! 
COS U R BORN THIS WAY!!...God make no mistake..





You must never look back..
Never go backwards..
You must always forwards!!!!

Pink - Perfect [Lyrics]

Fuckin' Perfect Lyrics

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good
It didnt slow me down.

Mistaking
Always second guessing
Underestimating
Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game

It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same

Oh

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

The whole worlds scared
So I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking
Is an ice cold beer

So cool in line
And we try, try, try
But we try too hard
http://www.elyricsworld.com/fuckin'_perfect_lyrics_pink.html
And it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeeeeaaaahhh
Oooooooh
Oh baby pretty please

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

Losing My Grip To Reality

-..-..—its hard to say..i miss us..me and u are no longer called as us or we..

Speechless

i am speechless..u left me speechless...i leave u speechless...we both speechless

FEBRUARI 2011

a lot of things happened and change lately..
i am hurt badly..
cant even stand a single day without crying..



i can say it a kind of agony..
but AGONY is just to bad to describe the torment

this excruciation has brought me somehow to weeks of crying..
while driving..and even after parking my car..at home when i was alone..
after stopping the car engine..
it took me 3 min to give a break and crying myself out
it is not a self pity..
but it is pain
painful
really painful

that make me feel like nk guling2 atas jalan..heks

well, anyway..i took my car from workshop
850ringgit..nk pitam ok
ij paid it already but then i payback to him..
cos i feel not comfortable letting him paying all of the bilL
then using my mom`s money and mine a bit..i give him 600
My bestie aka besfren forever, came over from Jitra


She is studying in JCU, queensland, aussie

she is doing medicine too
1st year freshiee..,..hehhee
miss her damn much
she brings back all the laughters that lost in my crucifixion
she is my bestfren when i was in mrsm
never found someone like her
a girl who is so honest with me
a person who i can bitch about
who can bitch me back
i only allow her to mencarut2 at me
others,..not so2 la..
even a fren say `weh` pon i already feel embittered
i love her so much
5 days together seem to be really short
full of joke
she dislike ij so much..hahaha
even dare to curse about ij in front of me
hehehe..jebon kan fathul ni

we went to sunway.SHOPPING..
even timesquare

we went to KAMAL eventhough both of us dont know where on the earth it is
as luck would have it, we found SYARIKAT KAMAL
hehe..fathul pon beli la buku2 medik dy
ak tgok2 stetoscope
tp kedekutnye pasal..yg harga 40rggt pon xbeli
malas nk beli..haha
tp ak rasa nk beli yg ade button tedi bear..mcm kiut je..hehe
satg p spital..patient igt ak doktot main2 pulak..kih3x

selagi ak xmasuk pektikel kt spital..selagi tu ak xbeli..haha
nk beli pon beli yg murah je..syg duet..haha
tp duet beli baju bole pulak,..hehe
keji kan..
FATHUL ISLAM,,...IF ONLY U READ MY BLOG..
I WANT TO SAY THAT U CHANGE MY SORROWFUL DAYS INTO BLISSFULL DAYS
..i am just a bestfren who is fully happy happy and feel contented with u by myside..
meeting u reminds me who i am..
how much i love u and all the moment we had together
u r my besfren forever..hehe

we start talking about how diligent, and high spirited both us of studying so hard to get straight A`s in spm
yes..seriuosly..
we study together troughout the year of taking spm..
when i asleep she will awaken  me..so do i
we tried to imagine ourself taking degree together..
it must be a lot of glory and fun
she bring the best in me..and same goes to me..
but..destiny has brought us apart..i have learn to live without her..
i will study hard so i can be her colleague then..hehe

well she gain weight..i noticed it and start calling her gumuk..haha
padahal i am fat too now..OBESITY PROBLEM

hope both of us to have this kind of body..haha
nk kena tukar cita2..nk jadi model la..
klu aim jd model..sure kna kurus..n usaha jd kurus.,..kah3x

ak aim nk jd sebesar pompuan dlm gbr ni..cantik kan..kurus,,.tgi..hot
bfr berpisah..we make a promise..of reducing weight...
next year when we meet again..i want to be thin back like the old time
she also want to be thin
`org lain makin besar,jaga badan n makin kurus, knapa kita berdua makin besar, makin gemuk.`
hehe..sebab kita suka makan n ade duet kot..tu lak jwpn ak.heheh
now..since she has go back to bandar darulaman..
i start really miss her.

start being lonely..and sorrow..and crying..

hope to meet her again in klia this 21februari
she is taking off back to aussie..


neway..ak nk rumah mcm ni bole??tuan rumah ni nama mira jugak
sm mcm nama ak..heks..

Contest Sy Suka Bt Peace~Peace Dalam POndok Telepon~

Jangan memain..bersabung nyawa nk angkat peace dlm pondok tipon~

actually contest ni ak baca kt fadz nye blog,,

http://fadzforfun.blogspot.com/

ak agak suke baca2 ape yg dy repek2..bes..haha

hilang rindu kek adik di kg

pastu tetengok dy join contest..

ni xjadi nih..nk kna join gak,..

gilo psko excited nk join..kih3x

ni gbr kengkawan foundation time g genting~

memory daun pisangs~

anyway sesapa nk  join sila ke blog fara

http://babyglarothic.blogspot.com/2010/12/fara-first-giveaway.html

ade la pasal syarat contest tu n mcm ne nk joinnye~

xpon bole je klik kat banner sebelah tu..

5 makhluk ak nk tagged untuk contest ni:

aten: http://angelofastar.blogspot.com/

kak aina: http://aina-ainaa-aina.blogspot.com/

lina: http://www.leenaspeakout.blogspot.com/

zue anak sudin: http://zulaikha1405.blogspot.com/

wawa: http://najihahiman.blogspot.com/

neway i miss my ex house8..

bile jauh..br sedar..

dh terpisah..

sebumbung uni..

tp xtserempak..

Thanks 4 Acting Like U Care

Suddenly u r just a stranger for me..
i barely know u after years knowing you..
Cheater!!!
Thats YOU!!


I hate you now..
No mercy for you..
I wont wager with u anymore..
So i am saying good bye for my own sake and pride..
Buhbye Dear..

And i want you to know that my heart still beating..
I wont drop to the ground..or down to self pity..

I WILL SURVIVE!!!

I will change myself..
I will get a hair cut and let it grow..
Feel Good!!!

Angan-angan nk P Jalan2

Bnyk sgt angan2 nk p jalan2 recently..
too much..too many people ngajak jalan2..uhuks~...
tp paling best time berangan n kak aina ptg ni time slowjog kt tasek sek 7, shh alam..
berangan sikit bes nk p london...





last2 melilau punya melilau nk p BALI..hahha

guess what.,..
too many things come cross our purple mind,,,,hehe
so many things that u arent able to do here..
can be done there,...uhuks~

27hb3..ij nk p umrah...
ak rasa keji sikit2
beria order air zam2 n jubah
nge~
supposely org nk p beribadat
so jgn la order brg..
dy bukan nk p shopping Amira
bulan 4 berangan nk p bandung...hoho...

angan2 nk p berjalan2 bagai mcm ak ni xdak kja kan..
padahal student weyh
STUDY FIRST
my job now is study..
so i need to do best in my study..
it is my job..
hoho....sabar je ann...
ak suke main2..
bahaye2