Dont hurt...

its hurtful...to see things that already hurt me..hurt other again..almost same exactly...my tears drop..burst...i am sad..hurt..in pain...not yet agony...but keep hurting me.,..

i promise
i wont hurt my ayah n mak feeling
i will try hard to be a good anak to them
i will do my best to accompany them
i spend as much time i can with them,
to love them with all my heart
i know ayah love me so much.
.no one can love me like my ayah do...
he cares so much for all his children..
he loves us really much..
my mak n ayah has dedicated their live to grew us well..

p/s: i promise i wont hurt my parents who loves me so much...i wont hurt people who care n love me..i wont..i dont want to

Bila kamu dah stop sukakan someone..

Move on..berubah hati..dah xsuka...
kadang bukan benci..tp just xda perasaan lagi..
mcm klu kapel kan..mula tu mmg la suka gila2..

tp disebabkan selalu gaduh....then break up..

then konon2 nk baik balik..n try again..
this time it wont work sbb hati dah xsuka..

sbb hati dah tawar..just xdak perasaan tu lagi...

can not go...haha..so that is it..

ko jgn paksa la mcm mana pon..xkan wujud lagi dah...

tp ni untuk ak la..ak xbole nk berbaik n ex sbb lepas ja break..

the first 2 days mmg ak break into tears n lepas tu terus ak akan ok la..

move on...tp disebabkan dah move on..so bile the ex dtg balik..
ak jadi nyampah..baca msg or tgok kol pon ak dah jadi semak..nyampah...

sgt2 meluat..thus ak pon screen kan je no,...

klu dlm fb,,.delete dr fren list..huk3x



p/s: ak agak paranoid..sbb tu ak cpt move..kdg2 ak percYA semua org benci or xska ak..padahal xla sgt pon..haha

Oh Shizuka!

Jalan2..suatu petang di tSa

TAsek shah Alam
mmg bes..suka sgt jalan kat cni...memusing2...tgok org...tgok kapel2 yg sweet tgh dating...nge3x

i forgive myself

people make mistake....i do make mistake
sometime its really huge...sometime its too small..that no one care
sometime it hurt people who u care and even to people who u never know that never hurt u..

faiz used to say to me...
~ckp sori mmg senang..sapa2 pon bole ckp...budak umuq 5 tahun pon bole ckp...tp perubahan tu yg org nk tgok...bukannya nk dgr sori tu..bosan la dgr sori2~

i stress out after making big mistake...i ruins someone life...i hardly forget what i did..
i told james,..he said..~past is pass..forgive yourself~

Now..i am forgiving myself...
promise never ruins other people relationship or life..
i ruins mine already..but not others

Cause I Am Your Hero..And you r my man

sila lah tgok...gagag...suka ak video ni....

Anak-anak kucing

to my anak2 kucing
i miss u all
wish all of u were here to night
i want to cuddle  u all
miss your smell..huk3x..bau anak kucing..sedap sgt
rindunya n anak2 kucing ku
hope kamu semua xkena curi mcm Oren...ur abg

i love us...me n u used to be us...

i did love u..and i do..and i still...
i always will..always have

When i look into your eyes i can see a love restrained
But darling when i hold don`t you know i feel the same
Nothing last forever and we both know hearts can change
And its hard to hold a candle in the cold November Rain

We`ve been in this such a long long just trying to kill the pain,
ooo..yeah...
But lovers always and lovers go
And no one`s really sure who`s letting go today
Walking away

If we could take the time to lay it on the line
i could rest my head just knowing u were mine
All mine

If want to love me
Then darling dont refrain
Or i`ll just end up walking in the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time..all alone
Ooh, everybody needs some time..on their own
Ooh, dont you know u need some time..all alone

I know it`s hard to keep an open herat
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if  you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn`t time be out to charm you

Sometimes i need some time...on my own
Sometimes i need some time..all alone
Ooh, Everybody needs sometime..on their own
Ooh, dont you know you need some time..all alone

And when your fears subside and shadeow still remain,
I know that u can love me when there`s no left to blame
So never mind the darkness We still  can find a way
Nothing last forever..Even cold November rain

Dont ya think that you need somebody
Dont ya think that you need somebody
Everybody needs somebody
Everybody needs somebody
You`re not the only one...
You`re not the only one...

Antartu

Sekarang ni klu ak balik rumah je...mesti r pastu terdengar bapak ak n mak2 sedara ak..or family ak ckp pasal sepupu2 ak yg xkwen2 lagi...family kami ramai lelaki..kurg pompuan...pompuan, anak2 ayah ak je r bnyk pon..tu pon akak2 ak dah kwen n almost kwen this may 2010.

Sepupu2 ak yg laki ni ade yg umo 30,29, 28, 27..dh kire antartu la..but still xkwen2..klu kire kategori..nk kate muke mcm tapak seliper jepun..x pulak ..muke nsem la jugak..ade keta...kje2 semua...but then xlaku...de 2 org tu dah 3 kali bertunang...tp putus..xjd...berta betoi jodoh dorg...mcm ayah ak ckp..kesian dorg dh tua tp xkwen2..the last wedding ceremony yg berlaku pon pada 2008..kak ak kwen..and the next is kak ak jugak..setakat ni br seorang ja 2pupu ak yg laki br kwen..

sebelah family mak ak ade sorg dh umo 30..tp naseb baik this dah bertunang...klu x..mmg maintain antartu la yen tu...yen nsem sgt..hahha,...

Ntah la...bile pikir balik..may b sbb dorg kurg usaha kot untuk kwen..or too bz workin cr duet nk balas jasa mak bapak...mcm own..own sgt2 komited n kja..or may b parents yg salah sbb xcarikan jodoh untuk anak dorg..

The Cuti SEM

Bnyk sgt jadi time cuti sem...adik ak patah tgn men rugby..siot je...so sepanjang cuti dy nyusahkan ak n danial...nk mandi pon kne ak mandikan...pakai baju pon kena ak tolong...tp kesian tgok dy..ni kali ke3 dy patah tulang...mak dgn superstitiousnya ckp la..tu la ayah xp putus limau...dunno..ak bkn percaya sgt bomoh2...

then dlm serabot2..ak yg mamai2 bgun tdoq pd suatu petang terus drive keta sbb nk p amik keta alza kak ak...padahal sebelum tu ak mimpi ak kena langgar n lori..then in that dream i broke my neck..yg lawaknya at mati time tgh mkn konon2 dating n ex ak r...huhu...

berbalik pd crita ak drive keta...ak ni cepat bosan klu keta queue2 time tgh2 jalan2..so dgn bergayanya ak tekan minyak n potong keta depan..time tu hujan tgh lebat..ak bwk agak laju la..but standard la memotong..tp nasib ak xbaik..tetiba ada keta wira dtg dr bertentangan...so ak try nk masuk lorong ak balik..but keta xbelok..even ak dh pusing stereng...waktu tu Tuhan ja tau perasaan ak...mulut ak sebut Allah ja...tu ja ak mampu...nseb baik sebelah kiri keta wira tu xde moto..thus keta tu dgn baiknya terjun dr jalan..ngelak keta ak...now ak paham apa tu overfloating yg diperkata2kan..sbb tu time hujan lebat jgn bwk keta laju2...but i am bit trauma...igt da xley drive..but the next two days i start driving my car back..ye r.,..memandu tu satu keperluan..lagipon dlm kitab ade soh kita bawak kuda aka nowdays memandu r..

then on one day kak wani n abg zaidi datang amik adam...mak nangis..,huhu..ye r..dy sedih..dah 4 bulan dy jaga adam..thus dy sayang la kat adam..her only cucu..but cucu is cucu..not ur son la mak..thus kena la bagi balik kat mak ayah dy...lagipon mak  ada drh tinggi..mna leh jaga cucu sgt..nti pening..

disebabkan adam sakit mata...ak pon dapat la sakit mata kes dok jaga dy time cuti ritu..