Kunci Syurga

ak tgh sedih2..upset...tgok video ni..bt ak regain my spirit.
La ila ha illallah..
tiada tuhan yang berhak disembah melainkan Allah..

downhearted...hurted....depressed..agony

too hurt to talk about anything rite now..

just hurt..

i hate the way i feel..

i hate when i become like this..

just hurt n feel the pain..

i feel like crying my lungs out,..

my focus..

merry gone.,,all gone

i hate this

the anguish..bruises

feel like jumping through out the window of my room..

but die is not easy

it is not the path

i wont choose it

i dont want to die

i am too scared of hell

penalty of the FIRE..

i am hurt....

because u hurt me...

Dr Thaaer Alsaad

ok..fine...
ni dokterr yg agak ngeri gak for some people including me la..
haha..
ak cuak lepas ade la kanak2 riang kelas ak kena marah kes body dlm kelas..
tp mental kat luar...
logik la der,..
ade ko nk fokus 2jam ngadap muka lecturer..
hehe...
ak pon xberjaya pertahan takhta concentration ak ketika lecture semalam
and caught red handed tgh berangan terkenangkan journey ak balik kg smbot posa last week..
hehhe...
best woo...
xnk cer neway pasal tu..

exam mid term ak tu...

disebabkan penat n beria2 baca pasal male reproducticve system n too much about prostate n penis...
jeng3x
i almost put ~I love Penis~ as shout out kat fb ok...
naseb baik kewarasan ak melarang
teringat ak xfilter ak nye fb,.,
kang terbaca dek ayah den..
haha..
thats all
now its all about girl...
wanna have fun with FEmale Reproductive System!

GIrl..Girl...Girl...
the more i get..the more i want..bak kata pitbulll

frUSTRAtion

There was a time when I actually believed,
That I loved you and you loved me
When stars came out late at night,
I dreamed of you 'til morning light
When things between us went so wrong,
Our voids of silence became too long
You said the words which made me cry,
You left me alone to save your pride
When I started to walk away,
A part of me still made me stay
I still remember the times we shared,
When for each other we actually cared
When your presence bought a smile to my face,
And a single kiss kept me smiling for days
I dedicated my life to you,
And you always said you loved me, too
Now I don't understand how it could be
Your caring affection is no longer for me
I remember our songs, smiles, and notes
The underlying warmth of the words we spoke
After all that, I still ask myself
How could I ever love anyone else?
You turned away when I needed you most,
How much you hurt me; you'll never know
Now I have to heal my heart
But I am clueless as to where to start
How do you expect me to act this way,
As if everything's fine and nothing's changed
I want you to know this pain I've been through
I've been hurt badly but now I'm over you
Because I know if we were meant to be,
Someday your heart will bring you back to me
I'll love again, I'll see blue skies
but untill then, I'm leaving you.
I'm saying goodbye.

Shamrin!!!

ak dh start minat shamrin..fotograf...hahha..gilor2...nsem seyh..suara dy pergh...sedap...otai

ak suke..hahha

i suke...
b suke...
u suke x?
do i concern?..gaga

XSalah Pilih Lelaki Berharta Daripada Yang Tidak Mementingkan Masa Depan

hoho..
ak bukak2 paper terbaca la tajuk ni...
tersengih2 ak baca..
neway ni mmg sgt2 la betul
mak ak menyokong 50% kenyataan ini
tp ikot perangai jugak kan..

klu jenis ringan tgn, kaki n mulut, kem salam ja labu

well tgok mak ak..
dy pilih ayah ak,
 bahagia hidup dy
cant imagine klu dy pilih org lain yang bkn type mcm ayah ak..
seriously,
bkn semua org dpt mak ayah yg economically stabile
its a gift la untuk dapat mak ayah mcm mak ayah ak..haha
riak pulak..sori


sometime,
bila ak tgok org yang dh berumur but still wandering around,
selekeh, rambut serabai dgn beg galas nk g mne pon ak tatau
make me think,
what have they done while young,
sbb sementara muda ni la nk kerja kuat, sungguh2
ak admit ak pemalas study,
dan ak sgt2 takot n kemalasan ak itu
even sekalipon xkwen ke ape ke,
ak nk ak jd mcm ayah
ak nk jadi mcm ayah ak
if org tny, `Hg nk jadi apa ni?` kdg2 ni perli ke apa ak tatau
tp yg sure jwpn ak `Nk jd mcm ayah.`
SBB AYAH AK ADALAH CONTOH TERBAIK.


mmg ayah ak xperfek
nobody is 100% perfect except Muhammad S.A.W
ayah bkn dr keluarga berharta,
sbb dy org perantau
tp hasil kerajinan dy,
even dy study kat maktab dulu
dy pakai moto,
tp moto tu beli guna duet dy bt bendang(sawah)
bendang tu dy sewa
dr sekolah rendah dy sewa bendang
cr duet poket
dulu sekolah, dy jarang p sekola
dy org susah, so kena la kerja



Bila dh kerja, ayah kwen
dy dpt USM smbg degree(dy simpan surat tawaran tunjuk kat anak2.ok.haha)
tp kes kwen dy xsmbg ngaji
tp dy cabar anak2 dy,..
30tahun dulu dy dpt masuk u
xkan kami pd zaman modern n serba lengkap mak ayah provide ni xbole
smbil2 kja, ayah meniaga
time dy mengajar kat langkawi, dy meniaga kerbau
mak ak pulak bela itik n lembu n kerbau
mak jual telur itik dulu
gigih cari duet
then bila duet cukup
dorg bt rumah tp rumah tu an impulse decision,
it was left, no one live there.
pastu br ayah mula beli tanah
save money dlm asb
n mcm2 lagi la..huhu
smpai la skrg
even mak ayah ak xpakai kereta mewah mcm mak ayah hampa(korg)
but i really2 proud of them

ak still igt, ayah dok n moyang ak
pagi tu ayah p sekola
time tu dy darjah dua
tiap2 pagi moyang htr ayah p sekola
dlm kelas tiba2 cikgu panggil ayah
ckp tok wan ayah meninggal.
benda ni ayah igt,
may b sbb dy plg rapat n tok wan dy kot...ntah

ayah ak pembersih..
suka sgt sapu sampah
smpai kelas dy..mula nk mengajar, wajib susun meja dulu
dy xkan tarik muka time sapu smpah
dr kecik lagi
mak ngah ak ckp
balik ja sekola, ayah bukak baju
then mula lah sapu smpah
dy bt ikhlas ok..haha
xpernah tarik muka ka berleter
mcm tu la smpai la
mak ak pernah kata; `dulu mak p umah ayah hg,
bersih laman rumah, dulu tatau sapa rajin sapu,
kawen2 tau dh sapa yg dok menyapu selama ni.`
(jgn risau; tabiat menyapu smpah hanya ada pada makcik n ayah ak,
ini xdiwarisi pada kami anak2..haha..
kami may b pakai vacuum kot)

dulu kt mrsm
room8 ak org sarawak
ayah dy kerja tentera
so bila adik beradik ramai
gaji xcukup, rumah sempit
ayah dy mula fikir la
smpai bila nk hidup mcm ni
then start biz
jual perkakas/bahan binaan
dorg mmg kaya raya now
tu pon sbb ayah dy serius tentang masa depan keluarga depa
ayah dy yang bersungguh2 nk bt perubahan
room8 ak pon sgt2 la rajin study
now dy bt medik kat india

(p/s)
if u r not born with silver spoon in mouth, dont make it an excuse for not studying hard.
Come on la..rumah kebajikan bnyk,
jbtn kebajikan pon bg duet,
they`ll makesure of people`s wellfare.
so klu still belajar, belajar rajin.
klu dh kerja, try to do your best.
Biar sentiasa ada improvement..
klu xkerja, start cr kerja..
klu tgh sakit, berubat dulu biar sembuh,..then kijo

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